I have no real friends, just school friends and acquaintances. My phone never gets any texts or phone calls unless I’m the one calling or texting them first. I feel like the people I go to school with don’t [care] about me, and I’m right. I’m usually never invited to any kind of events, whether it’d be parties, hanging out, etc. I try to tell myself that friends are overrated, that I’m better off without them, but I can’t help but be lonely. I don’t have social anxiety, I’m not even awkward. I feel like I’m a friendly person, and open up to people very easy; sometimes a bit too easily. I feel as if I’m more mature than everyone who surrounds me, that I have plans to be successful in the future and determination; when they don’t.
I just want to [be around people] whom I can be my complete self around without feeling uncomfortable or trying to change myself to be more accepted. [People] who [share] my interests […] I want to meet someone who wants to hang out with me, who enjoys my company, who looks forward to our talks. But as of right now, the feeling of loneliness still lingers; I still have time, as I wait for someone real to step by my path.